I'll start right away to drop the things that bother me uselessly. I don't wanna bother with my weight and outlook anymore. I just don't. Futile, wasting time and energy. It's eating up my appetite for life. Whenever I look into the mirror and I see my tummy, it freaks me out, and makes me think I'm…

I can't wait. To see you. I can't wait to grow up to be a true, whole person. I can't wait to I get out from my hermitage. (And that's an allusion to Melville's Bartleby, the Scrivener.) I can't wait till I'm strong enough to bear all the burdens of my life alone, with a smile. I can't wait to be…